Asher’s 7th Birthday

February 19, 2024 was Asher’s 7th birthday.  It’s hard to believe we have a 7 year old, a little boy who should be in first grade, but isn’t. In seven years we’ve lived a lot of life all the while Asher hasn’t. That reality will always hurt. This year I didn’t have all the anxiety leading …

Starting our New Normal and Rowan update

Today is the last day of my last maternity leave. This leave was nothing like my leave with the girls. With them, we stayed home a majority of the time, soaked in baby snuggles, napped, and binge watched a LOT of TV. With Rowan, the leave was spent with two older children home half the day …

Obligatory Year in Review – 2023

2023....what a roller coaster of unexpected twist and turns this year has been. In preparation for this year in review, I read my post from December 2022. In that post, I talked about the fact that we had been trying for 16 months with no positive results. I went on to share the mixture of emotions …

Rowan’s Entrance

Today is Rowan's due date so it seemed fitting to share a little more about Rowan's arrival and health since he made his debut 18 days ago. Rowan was born via a scheduled C-section at 37 weeks 3 days on Thursday, November 16, 2023 at 8:04am. He came in weighing 7 lb. 6 oz. and …

It’s a…

After our Nuchal Transparency Test at 12 weeks 3 days. MFM Doc - " Everything looks good. You are doing the NIPS bloodwork, too?" Me: "Yes." MFM Doc - "Okay, make sure you tell Stacey if there is a special way you want to be told the gender." Me: "I already told her we don't …

WELP…

In February Steve and I decided that I could use my bonus from work, if we got one, for myself.  I decided to move forward with laser hair removal of my underarms.  I’ve always been self-conscious of the area and wanted to make it a clean slate. I paid for it at the beginning of …

Asher’s 6th birthday

This Sunday we celebrated Asher’s 6th birthday. The unique aspect this year was that the days of the week matched up exactly to when they did back in 2017, when Asher was born.  I went into the hospital on Saturday, February 18th, learned our son had died, and he was born the next day on …

He Was There

… every month when my period came and I cried. … when I made the call to see the fertility doctor. … at our first fertility doctor appointment. …. keeping me calm and distracted, when they took my blood for the first time EVER in my life and I was absolutely petrified. … when I …

Asher’s 5th birthday

It's still hard to believe that we are here...celebrating 5 years since Asher was born. Five years without his physical presence and still a lifetime to go. Five is big and the build up to his birthday was no different than in years past. It is always far worse than the actual day. I am …

Obligatory Year in Review – 2021

Instagram 2021 Top 9 2021…I think we all hoped it would be a better year, with the addition of the COVID-19 vaccines being rolled out right around the end of 2020 but this year has still proven to be pretty difficult for many, if not more so than 2020.  I think we can all agree …