Today is my 29th birthday.  The last one before the big 3-0.  I have had absolutely no desire to celebrate this day.  As I have gotten older, birthdays have become less and less exciting.  27 was not good to me.  I struggled with infertility and had a miscarriage.  I faced a lot of fears that … Continue reading 29


5 Months

Today marks month five of living without my son. When I think of the fact that it has only been 5 months and that I have a lifetime to go without him, my heart breaks and tears immediately spring to my eyes. How? Why? The unfairness that is this life is ridiculous. I’ve found that … Continue reading 5 Months


Since losing Asher, I have heard this word quite frequently. For example, I was having a conversation with a coworker who works in another department the other day.  I don’t see her often and this was one of the few times I was able to speak to her since being back at work.  The conversation … Continue reading Strong

10 things you don’t expect when you lose a child (other than the obvious)

1)      When they tell you your child doesn’t have a heartbeat, you don’t expect to have to go through natural childbirth.  Not only, did I experience labor; but, they let my contractions come closer together than they would for a woman with a living baby inside.  When the uterus contracts, it squishes the baby and … Continue reading 10 things you don’t expect when you lose a child (other than the obvious)


I just arrived home from a week long vacation with my family.  I figured while the multiple loads of laundry are being done (insert face palm emoji here), I would write about our trip.  Here is a little background.  My father booked this vacation back in October.  Typically, we go on vacation the second week … Continue reading Vacation