Recently, I saw on my Timehop app that 3 years ago we had out first fertility doctor appointment, after trying on our own for one year. On that day, I had blood taken for the first time in my entire life. Two years after that, I was injecting myself to try for another child after … Continue reading Is this real life?
Yesterday was our baby shower for our girls. It was a day I had been looking forward to for months, but one that also filled me with a lot of anxiety as the day approached. We never had a shower with Asher. We lost him two weeks before we were supposed to have his shower. … Continue reading Baby Shower
Can I be honest about something? I feel guilty for being pregnant right now. The last thing I want to do is cause pain to those who are struggling to get pregnant, those who have had a loss, or those who are struggling after loss. I feel guilty because I get it. I’ve been there … Continue reading Guilt
On December 18, 2017, I had my baseline ultrasound to possibly start a new cycle of injectables. After the last attempt, I developed about 5 cysts on my ovaries and had to take a month off. My baseline ultrasound showed that the cysts were gone and we were able to move forward with treatment. I … Continue reading January 8, 2018
Before writing this, I re-read my post from 2016. In general, it said that the beginning of 2016 was the worst of our lives between the infertility and my miscarriage, but that the end of 2016 was wonderful because I was pregnant with our rainbow. I went into 2017 thinking it would be the best … Continue reading Obligatory year in Review 2017
My hope since losing Asher, was that I would be pregnant by his first birthday. The idea of that date is one that fills me with such sadness. It will be marking the fact that an entire year has passed since my son was born, silent and still. Being pregnant by his first birthday, would … Continue reading Can we catch a break?!
Since my last post was about trying to conceive, I figured I would share the results of that trying with you all. The answer to the question, am I pregnant, is a big, fat, flipping, NO. Negative once again. I'm not quite sure why I thought this month would be any different than the last … Continue reading For the inquiring minds…
I started this blog when my life only consisted of struggling with infertility. I was tired of people’s insensitive comments about our struggle ( “just relax”, “be patient”, “enjoy it”) and I needed a venue to share my thoughts with others. I needed my feelings about infertility to be shared with those who haven’t experienced … Continue reading Back at it
After 6 months of trying on our own to give Asher a sibling, I made the decision to go to back to the fertility doctor for help. Since delivering Asher, my like-clockwork cycles have gone completely haywire and have absolutely no consistency. So not only, did I lose my son, but because I still had … Continue reading Back to the Fertility Doc
Mother's Day is going to be another one of those hard/trigger days that we will have since losing Asher. I plan to avoid social media like the plague on Mother’s Day. It will be flooded with photos of mothers with their children and the homemade gifts they receive. To my dismay, it has already started … Continue reading Mother’s Day 2017