Recently, I saw on my Timehop app that 3 years ago we had out first fertility doctor appointment, after trying on our own for one year. On that day, I had blood taken for the first time in my entire life. Two years after that, I was injecting myself to try for another child after … Continue reading Is this real life?
Dear Hubby, Today is your first day back at work since the little ladies came into this world (well actually since August 24). It’s a day you have been stressing about for weeks. I know leaving the girls is not easy, but that you are also happy to get back to work. You didn’t like … Continue reading Open Letter to Hubby – Back to Work
Tomorrow marks 20 months since Asher was born. It's crazy how much life has changed in that time, specifically the last 7 weeks. I've said before that the guilt of parenting after loss is very real. My time has been consumed by his little sisters and I’ve found myself having less time to spend with … Continue reading 20 Months
The girls are 6 weeks now! I can't believe it. It seems like yesterday they were both in my belly and I was freaking out about their arrival. I kind of miss my big baby bump. While the swelling towards the end was getting old, I never hated being pregnant (minus the anxiety). Every time … Continue reading 6 weeks
Dear Pump, I have decided it is time to end our relationship. It’s not me, it’s you. You are draining (literally) and using you has caused me to develop a clogged duct and an infected milk duct (one in each breast, wahoo!). I am currently on antibiotics and had a fever of 101.1 for the … Continue reading Dear Breast Pump – Open Letter
Asher's little sister's entered the world on August 30, 2018 via scheduled C-section at 37 weeks 2 days gestation. Harper Ray was born first at 11:41am, weighing 6 pounds 2 ounces and measuring 19.25 inches long. Scarlett Asher soon followed at 11:43am, weighing 6 pounds 9 ounces and measuring 19.5 inches long. The entire pregnancy … Continue reading They’re Here!
18 MONTHS Sunday marked Asher’s 18th month birthday. It has been a year and a half since we held our sweet boy. Whenever these milestone moments of the passing of time occur, it always feels like it was a lifetime ago but also like it was just yesterday. Recently, so much of my time has been spent … Continue reading 18 months and PAL update
Last week I turned the big 3-0. My life is a lot different than I ever expected it to be by this point. It reminded me of the fact that we started trying for a child when I was 26. Here I am, almost 4 years later, grateful to be pregnant with twins, but also terrified … Continue reading Milestones in Life and PAL
17 Months We have navigated 17 months without Asher. My grief has definitely changed over that time period. I find myself crying less but that the pain of his absence is always felt. I wrote in an article for Still Standing that I primarily feel guilty because so much of my focus has been on … Continue reading 17 months & PAL Ramblings
Yesterday was our baby shower for our girls. It was a day I had been looking forward to for months, but one that also filled me with a lot of anxiety as the day approached. We never had a shower with Asher. We lost him two weeks before we were supposed to have his shower. … Continue reading Baby Shower