I really love our current home. We have done a lot to it in the 5 years we’ve owned it to make it ours. If we didn’t get a two for one deal on babies, we probably would still be there for another 5 years. However, having twins has made me realize our main living … Continue reading Moving
On Tuesday we celebrated Asher’s second birthday. It was a bittersweet day, as it will always be. It will always mark the passing of time since I last held my son. Two years is too many to go with a piece of your heart missing and yet, it will only continue to get longer. However, … Continue reading Happy 2nd Birthday, Asher!
It’s February. The month my world irrevocably changed two years ago. We all know my story by now. I’ve said it before and I will continue to say it for the rest of my life, it seems like just yesterday that I held my son and yet also a lifetime ago. When I really sit … Continue reading Two Years
Recently, Hubby and I went to our local market with the little ladies. We wandered around with our coffee and donuts, each wearing a baby. The amount of attention that babies get in public is crazy. Now take that, and multiply it by two! People love twins. As we walk past, we hear “oh there’s … Continue reading Are They Twins?
One year ago, I got home from work and put off taking an at-home pregnancy test. It had become a ritual of mine to always take one the day before my beta test with the fertility doctor. I needed to know the answer before the bloodwork confirmed it was negative. I needed to be prepared … Continue reading One Year Since the Return of Hope
Prior to writing this post, I read my post summarizing 2017. 2017 was the worst year of my life. Yes, it brought me Asher, but it only gave me one day with him; one day and a lifetime of grief. Since that day, my life has been a complicated blend of happy and sad. It’s … Continue reading Obligatory Year in Review 2018
At the beginning of the month, I took the girls to the Children’s Christmas party at my work where they met Santa for the first time. It was cute but after they had their “first meeting with Santa” I was left with an uncomfortable feeling. I wasn’t sure if it was the fact that it … Continue reading Santa Sadness
The time between Thanksgiving and Christmas has always been my favorite time of year. I absolutely love everything about the season; the music, the lights, the reason, the decorations, the trees, the ornaments, picking out the right gift for people, etc. I love decorating the tree and getting out all the ornaments each year. It’s always … Continue reading It’s the Most Wonderful (and grief filled) Time of the Year
Harper and Scarlett, Let me start by saying that I love you both so very much. You have brought a light back into my life that has been missing for a very long time. Being home with you these last three months has been wonderful (in addition to challenging). Luckily for us, your Daddy was … Continue reading An Open Letter to My Daughters as I Return to Work
Recently, I saw on my Timehop app that 3 years ago we had out first fertility doctor appointment, after trying on our own for one year. On that day, I had blood taken for the first time in my entire life. Two years after that, I was injecting myself to try for another child after … Continue reading Is this real life?