Losing Asher at 32 weeks 5 days was the worst case scenario of my otherwise healthy pregnancy. I’m sure I’ve mentioned this before, but since living the worst case scenario with our son, I go there now with basically everything else. It has made my hypochondria worse, increased my worry about my loved ones, and … Continue reading Doggie drama and the subsequent spiraling
Oh, the holiday season…it was once my absolute favorite time of year. Last year, I was filled with hope for our son and our future as a family. I thought of the fact that we would have a 8 month old with us at Christmas this year. It would be a new Christmas for our … Continue reading It’s the holiday season
My hope since losing Asher, was that I would be pregnant by his first birthday. The idea of that date is one that fills me with such sadness. It will be marking the fact that an entire year has passed since my son was born, silent and still. Being pregnant by his first birthday, would … Continue reading Can we catch a break?!
Thanksgiving. It is that time of year where we all sit around and say what we are thankful for in our lives. We focus on the good things that happened over the past year and the things in our lives for which we are grateful. While I know that I have so many things to … Continue reading Thanksgiving 2017
Month 9 has been a busy one. It's been filled with progress. We flew to California to visit my brother-in-law, sister-in-law, and niece. We spent a few days there exploring the Bay area and catching up with family. I will admit that spending so much consecutive time with a toddler, hurt my heart a little. … Continue reading 9 months
Since my last post was about trying to conceive, I figured I would share the results of that trying with you all. The answer to the question, am I pregnant, is a big, fat, flipping, NO. Negative once again. I'm not quite sure why I thought this month would be any different than the last … Continue reading For the inquiring minds…
I started this blog when my life only consisted of struggling with infertility. I was tired of people’s insensitive comments about our struggle ( “just relax”, “be patient”, “enjoy it”) and I needed a venue to share my thoughts with others. I needed my feelings about infertility to be shared with those who haven’t experienced … Continue reading Back at it
Recently, I had a dream that I was pregnant. I was full term and in labor. I was laying in the hospital bed and kept asking the doctor to put the fetal monitors on my stomach to monitor my baby while I had contractions. The doctor refused to do this. I knew it meant that … Continue reading Dreams and reality
Bereaved parents are forced to make decisions that no parent should ever have to make. In our case, we had to think about these things BEFORE our child was even born. After we decided I should be admitted and induced, my parents came to the hospital. I distinctly remember laying there in the bed looking … Continue reading What do we do?
Tomorrow will mark 8 months since we said hello and goodbye to Asher. So, what to say about month 8? This past month we were able to participate in a few events to remember our boy. We participated in our local Share chapter’s Walk to Remember. We were also able to man a table at … Continue reading 8 Months