Obligatory Year in Review 2018

Prior to writing this post, I read my post summarizing 2017.  2017 was the worst year of my life.  Yes, it brought me Asher, but it only gave me one day with him; one day and a lifetime of grief.  Since that day, my life has been a complicated blend of happy and sad.  It’s … Continue reading Obligatory Year in Review 2018

Santa Sadness

At the beginning of the month, I took the girls to the Children’s Christmas party at my work where they met Santa for the first time.  It was cute but after they had their “first meeting with Santa” I was left with an uncomfortable feeling.  I wasn’t sure if it was the fact that it … Continue reading Santa Sadness

It’s the Most Wonderful (and grief filled) Time of the Year

The time between Thanksgiving and Christmas has always been my favorite time of year.  I absolutely love everything about the season; the music, the lights, the reason, the decorations, the trees, the ornaments, picking out the right gift for people, etc.  I love decorating the tree and getting out all the ornaments each year.  It’s always … Continue reading It’s the Most Wonderful (and grief filled) Time of the Year

20 Months

Tomorrow marks 20 months since Asher was born.  It's crazy how much life has changed in that time, specifically the last 7 weeks.  I've said before that the guilt of parenting after loss is very real.  My time has been consumed by his little sisters and I’ve found myself having less time to spend with … Continue reading 20 Months