February 19, 2024 was Asher’s 7th birthday. It’s hard to believe we have a 7 year old, a little boy who should be in first grade, but isn’t. In seven years we’ve lived a lot of life all the while Asher hasn’t. That reality will always hurt. This year I didn’t have all the anxiety leading … Continue reading Asher’s 7th Birthday
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Obligatory Year in Review – 2023
2023....what a roller coaster of unexpected twist and turns this year has been. In preparation for this year in review, I read my post from December 2022. In that post, I talked about the fact that we had been trying for 16 months with no positive results. I went on to share the mixture of emotions … Continue reading Obligatory Year in Review – 2023
Rowan’s Entrance
Today is Rowan's due date so it seemed fitting to share a little more about Rowan's arrival and health since he made his debut 18 days ago. Rowan was born via a scheduled C-section at 37 weeks 3 days on Thursday, November 16, 2023 at 8:04am. He came in weighing 7 lb. 6 oz. and … Continue reading Rowan’s Entrance
Asher’s 6th birthday
This Sunday we celebrated Asher’s 6th birthday. The unique aspect this year was that the days of the week matched up exactly to when they did back in 2017, when Asher was born. I went into the hospital on Saturday, February 18th, learned our son had died, and he was born the next day on … Continue reading Asher’s 6th birthday
Obligatory Year in Review – 2022
It's that time of year again...another year to review. It's still hard for me to process the passing of yet another year, when I'm mentally still stuck in March 2020. So much life and change has happened in that time, and yet that whole "COVID everything shutting down" thing seems literally like yesterday. I'm still … Continue reading Obligatory Year in Review – 2022
Kindergarten
Over the last five and a half years since losing Asher, back to school season wasn't really on my radar. It never really triggered me. This year is different. This year I should be picking out the first day of school outfit for my son. This year I should be checking to see who was … Continue reading Kindergarten
He Was There
… every month when my period came and I cried. … when I made the call to see the fertility doctor. … at our first fertility doctor appointment. …. keeping me calm and distracted, when they took my blood for the first time EVER in my life and I was absolutely petrified. … when I … Continue reading He Was There
The Scars Remain
April 24-30 is Infertility Awareness Week. I started this blog a little over six years ago when we were in the thick of our fertility struggle. When I felt the most alone I had ever felt in my life. When I felt misunderstood and dismissed by so many around me. I wanted people to understand … Continue reading The Scars Remain
Asher’s 5th birthday
It's still hard to believe that we are here...celebrating 5 years since Asher was born. Five years without his physical presence and still a lifetime to go. Five is big and the build up to his birthday was no different than in years past. It is always far worse than the actual day. I am … Continue reading Asher’s 5th birthday
Obligatory Year in Review – 2021
Instagram 2021 Top 9 2021…I think we all hoped it would be a better year, with the addition of the COVID-19 vaccines being rolled out right around the end of 2020 but this year has still proven to be pretty difficult for many, if not more so than 2020. I think we can all agree … Continue reading Obligatory Year in Review – 2021