Bedrest update

Well we know that they each have at least one 👂🏻! 😂The girls did not want to share their faces. I wanted to update everyone on today’s  appointment went well. My cervical length has stayed the same.  They are going to start me on progesterone (again) because that can help and just continue to monitor … Continue reading Bedrest update

Pregnancy After Loss – Onto the Next hurdle

Since sharing about our pregnancy, I haven’t really shared much about what this pregnancy has been like for me.  It is extremely different from my pregnancy with Asher, not just because there are two little babes in there but also because of my monitoring, supplements, and emotions.. My pregnancy with Asher was very uncomplicated.  I … Continue reading Pregnancy After Loss – Onto the Next hurdle


I’ve mentioned before that my grandmother had a stillborn daughter back in 1954. I found out about her existence a few years ago when I randomly decided to Google my name. One of the search results was a family tree that someone put together with all this information about my relatives. That’s where I found … Continue reading Phyllis

Nurses Week

This week is National Nurses Week.  A time to acknowledge nurses and all of the wonderful things they do for their patients.  During our experience in the hospital, we were able to have the same nurses the entire 48 hours we were admitted.  They saw both Hubby and I at our darkest and most vulnerable.  The compassion … Continue reading Nurses Week


The loss community has a lot of terms to describe children born at different points in relation to their loss. “Sunshine babies” are those born before a loss.  “Angel babies” are the ones lost.  “Rainbow baby” is the term for a pregnancy/baby born after a loss (miscarriage, stillborn, infant loss).  There are mixed feelings regarding … Continue reading Rainbow

14 Months

Fourteen months ago we lost our sweet Asher.  These monthly milestones of time passing have lost a bit of their significance since the passing of the one year mark.  I feel guilty about that.  That whole first year without him, I knew the one year was a huge milestone just looming out there in the … Continue reading 14 Months


Can I be honest about something? I feel guilty for being pregnant right now. The last thing I want to do is cause pain to those who are struggling to get pregnant, those who have had a loss, or those who are struggling after loss. I feel guilty because I get it. I’ve been there … Continue reading Guilt

January 24

** This was written on January 24, 2018.** 6 weeks. First ultrasound. This being our third go around, we knew that 6 weeks is really the earliest that you can see a baby and their heartbeat. Lots of pressure. It’s not just an abstract idea that one is pregnant. It is confirmed visually that there … Continue reading January 24